Read: Mark 8: 1-26
“Aware of their discussion, Jesus asked them: “why are you talking about having no bread? Do you still not see or understand? Are your hearts hardened? Do you have eyes but fail to see, and ears but fail to hear? And don’t you remember? When I broke the five loaves for the five thousand, how many basketfuls of pieces did you pick up?” “Twelve,” they replied. “And when I broke the seven loaves for the four thousand, how many basketfuls of pieces did you pick up?” They answered “Seven.” He said to them, “Do you still not understand?” (Mark 8: 17-21 NLT)
I’m starting to wonder if the disciples are just very poor at planning. Yet again, they are faced with a large crowd, and this time they only brought one loaf of bread. But unlike before, we do not hear an account of a new miracle. We hear of his past miracles, feeding 9000 people with 12 loaves of bread, and collecting 19 baskets of leftovers (that is some pretty amazing work, when you think about it). This story, however, is about trust.
How many times in your life have you been worried? How many times have you wondered if God was still watching out for you? Have you lost your faith? Have you seen the miracles He has performed within your life? I have! I have questioned God, and I have doubted God. I never see them at the time, but when I look back, there are many times that I can also see the guiding hand of God shaping my life and decisions to bring me to where I am today. If I had a stronger faith, I would have been saved a lot of worry.
And yet, I still question God. I still wonder why things happen the way they do. Eventually my questions of today will fade, and I will see the plan that came together while I was worrying. And at that time, I will hear him say, “Do you have eyes but fail to see, and ears but fail to hear?”
When the stress of life starts to wear on you, remember that Jesus is walking this journey with you. He is here to provide for your needs and will help you through your struggles. I will continue to work on my faith, ever believing the promise of the Bible that my place in heaven is guaranteed. Aaron Van Ningen